I personally think,
30 years later when I look back,
Form 4 will definitely be the most memorable year.
When I say memorable, there's good and bad in it.
Whatever it is, I
definitely will appreciate it.
Form Four isn't like the past few years.
Its
less relaxing,
more tense,
fast paced (in fact so fast if you can't run, you'll get left behind).
Typical student life?
Behind the scenes, there's
alot more to it.
(Okay I'll be straightforward
cause I feel very the somehow passionate about this issue today, 12.28 am to be exact.)
There's alot of
gossip first of all.
I'm not proud, but I admit I do indulge in gossiping along with friends.
Gossip, you don't know whether its the truth or not.
But when you
gossip, you really find
pleasure in doing so.
In fact, there are times you find it very hard to control.
Its like a drug actually.
It
is bad, for the party being talked about.
To all the people who start to judge me right this instant,
you can think however you want.
But
gossiping is an integral part of a girl's life.
In high school, there's
no way you can escape it,
however hard you try.
In fact, I've come to terms a long long time ago.
There WILL be people who gossip about me.
And I definitely WILL gossip about people.
Its not nice to be talked about in a bad way honestly, but its not under anyone's control.
Not to say I don't mind being gossiped about, I've just (hopefully) come to terms with it.
Next,
activities.
Really tiring in fact.
This is where the term
'fast paced and tensed' comes in.
I have no idea since when I put myself in so many activities.
They just somehow land in front of your face and go, 'pick me up and start doing it'.
Suddenly, I have
Debate, Ye, Librarian's Board, GFC and a few more all thrust in front of me.
In April there are 30 days, and out of these 30, I'm not in school for 11 days.
There's no time to
breathe.
And 2nd terms are in May.
I am so amazing I amaze myself. (joke okay?)
Third,
peer pressure.
I know everyone faces peer pressure.
And some people will start saying 'so what? I face it too =.='
But the thing is.
I have to live up to the expectations of my parents,
and at the same time maintain friendship with certain people I treasure.
I have some really well off friends, and I'm not slumdog poor, but in that aspect, I lose to most of my friends.
I have some genius friends, and although I don't consider myself below average, I
still lose to most of my friends.
I have some extrovert friends, and I can talk to people, but I
still lose out to alot of my friends.
I have sporty friends, I don't suck in sports, but I
still lose to quite a number of friends.
Conclusion,
I can say I'm just average, with a scary number of people ahead of me.Fourthly, friends.
I'm not a social butterfly or anything, really.
In Form Four, I guess I know more people compared to the years before.
(Aiyah this is quite stupid. Where got people know lesser people while growing older? =.=)
Yes, I have normal hi-bye friends, good friends, and
two closest girlfriends.
There's also crushes and boyfriends and matters of the opposite gender but thats not my focus now.
Today I want to talk about my two really closest friends.
Chenlynn.
If I lived for 16 years, then it might seem like I've known her for a relatively short time.
One quarter of my life.
Four years, to be exact.
Honestly, I tell her alot of things.
Sometimes, I don't think she realises it though.
She's the type of friend I tell more emotional stuff to, the one I rant to.
She's one person for girls to admire.
Tall, thin, pretty, smart.We don't really agree on alot of things.
Starting from unimportant things such as taste in guys ie.
Wang Leehom =.=She's surprisingly not the hardworking type.
Sometimes I do think it's unfair because I think I work and study harder than her but she still ends up in better, if not around the same, conditions.
I also think she's very
awesome. :D
After being friends with her for four years,
I can safely say she's random, high, and one heck of a friend.
Sometimes though, even if we both don't mention anything, there's a dissatisfied feeling about each other that I think both of us know but are just not willing to confront.
Its happening these days, probably over a few matters.
But thats really unimportant,
because I sincerely think at the end of the day,
we'll still be the best of friends. (:
Rachel.
She's the longest friend I've ever met.
11 years and still on.
I only became close to her in Form One but that doesn't matter.
She's the most
carefree, outgoing, happy girl I think I will ever know my entire life.
If all you emo people want to envy someone, she's that someone.
She never gets upset over tiny matters and hardly gets angry over anyone for a long period of time.
In my 11 years of knowing her, unlike normal best friends,
we have NEVER argued =.=
She has a life motto: live life to the fullest, because life's too short.
Thats why I can say she's my
spontaneous partner.
We talk alot, about fashion to guys to food to school to our future to... everything.
We do alot of things in common. ie. joining the same clubs.
We even have a common goal for our future education (actually, more of she inspired me to go for it =.=)
I'm really glad I have such a friend who waits with me almost every evening for transport.
There's not much to describe her, because you have to know her your ownself.
I sincerely
love my two close friends.
With this, refer to the post title.
Thats what I think friends are.
Goodnight, or rather,
good morning. (2.33am)
There you go!
